What do you do when you never feel like you are good enough? Is everyone that way? I know the easy answer is to surround yourself with people that make you feel good enough but it really isn’t that simple. In fact, these feelings can be downright complicated.
I can turn the best intended scenario or circumstance into something to be insecure about. It can be a word, a look, a strange smile. Sometimes, you will never be good enough for someone because you aren’t the person they are looking for. Maybe at one point you were exactly the right person but for complicated reasons people change. I want so desperately to be ENOUGH….but when is ENOUGH never ENOUGH???I used to see you Clearly focused Lovingly on our future You overlooked My insecurities My insane habits My messy tendencies You comforted me When I cried Even when you Didn’t understand me But now… My imperfections Ugly black spots Moldy and diseased Blinding you from What you used to see If only I were Skinnier Less social Cleaner Classier Open minded Loving Happier More observant More present More like you Less like me Maybe we would have a chance At the future you picked out for me