I tossed and turned all night last night thinking of this and that. I slept off and on dreaming about this and that. I woke up thinking I needed a nap from all the exhausting this and that. I will apologize now if this is a rambling post, there are bound to be a few here and there, but right now it is all I have to offer.
In one of my dreams I was walking on a very well-worn dirt path and to my right was the ocean below. It was beautiful and peaceful. Birds chirped, the flowers were bright, the sun’s rays were warm. I could feel and hear everything. Then I looked up and saw my daughter in a sun dress riding her bike towards me. She had a big smile on her face but I was horrified. The dirt path was so small and she was so little and the drop was so far down. I started to run towards her with a smile so not to startle her. I tried to yell for her to stop for a moment but I couldn’t talk….my lips were glued shut. Then her front tire hit a rock and the look on her face as she lost control of the bike woke me up.
I don’t know what the dream meant other than I am tired. I am considering a big life change, and it is important enough I have to be sure I am making the decision for the right reasons. I have dreams like this when I am stressed, and feel I have no control.
Currently, I am surrounded by people holding on to the edge of life with all their strength. Death….it happens to everyone, in a variety of ways, in every moment worldwide. I have had many people in my life die, it never gets easier. Three people have passed in the last month, 2 from cancer and 1 was and accident. I am actively losing another friend to cancer. I am beginning to look at life as cancer. We all have it and we are all dying from it. We hear the phrase LIVE life while you have it. Well, what does that mean? Truly, I am rambling, I am tired, I am not negative but I am not positive either. I want to LIVE my life. I am grateful for my life and the time I will be allotted, but right now I just need some sleep.
I would love to hear what you think my dream means! And what does it mean to LIVE!