I NEED… REST

Written by: Sarah Fader
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Inside my body I ache
The door is open
I stand
outside of it
The cool draft comes fast
faster
I feel it
I don’t know
how to make it stop
make it stop
I can’t
make it stop
the wind is so cold
it stings as the tears stick to my face
you said you would meet me on the corner
I waited for hours
and you never came
but I held hope that
every minute
every second
you would meet me there
you said you would take me
you said we would go away together
I…
I believed you
but you never came
I am still standing here because
it is cold and I don’t want to go inside
I don’t want to see your face in my head anymore
but it’s still there
because you haunt me
I wanted you
to
love me
I thought
if I stood here
there
anywhere
long enough
you would come
and then
we’d be together
and
I would be loved but
I was so wrong
wrong about you
wrong about me
and wrong about what happened
so it’s time for me to go
I’m sorry
I need to go inside and
wash my face
I need to lay down
put the blanket over my body
and rest for a while
I hope wherever you are
you are safe
because I will
always
love you.

Sarah Fader Bio Pic
Sarah Fader recently released a collection of her essays from around
the Internet and you already love her because you read this article
and you want to buy her book.
http://amzn.to/1RgBeZa

Sarah is the CEO and Founder of Stigma Fighters, a non-profit organization
that encourages individuals with mental illness to share their
personal stories. She is an author and blogger, having been featured
on Psychology Today, The Huffington Post, HuffPost Live, and Good day
New York.

Sarah is a native New Yorker who enjoys naps, talking to strangers,
and caring for her two small humans and two average-sized cats. Like
six million other Americans, Sarah lives with panic disorder. Through
Stigma Fighters, Sarah hopes to change the world, one mental health
stigma at a time.

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